This Revolution:

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Nothing is more sobering than the knowledge freedom is bought with the blood of my countrymen.

I love this country, but I feel I can no longer trust it's government.

... And so my blood runs cold.

Time is the greatest thief known to man.

I can sit and work for hours, but I wish it was easier to sleep at night. The harder I work, the more I have of it. That's the price I pay for living ever since the Victorian Company purchased my family's arboretum.

I appreciate my job when I think of myself without one.

So when people buy perfume, I like to think they're spreading a little happiness. All fragrances individually seem pointless, but together they perfume the air.

Petitioners about our aromatic products forget the era of the plague. Go back in time to the days when people died of cholera and syphalis; nobody showered, and perfume was a necessity. We are fortunate for the advances the Company has made in public health.

Therefore, I am glad to announce the Victorian Company will shortly be introducing a new range of fresh hand-made toiletries; soap, bath salts, fragrances and gifts for your loved ones. All are fragranced with our extra special blends of perfume.

I hope you will find your local company shop and indulge your impulses.

Never shall I understand women, the most beautiful and foolish of creatures. I have always loved to see their pretty, youthful faces. But I know of no marriage in which the woman hasn't gossipmongered with her friends from time to time.

I had not been awake two hours yesterday morning when I was without Agatha, she was with her friends, and I overheard them talking about playing the violin.

It is wrong, but I just want to know what they are talking about.

I had other priorities in my youth than settling down and starting a family.  I was spirited and optimistic and wanted to see the world. Travelling made me wiser, but I feel it made me unhappy.

Now I feel those obligations and my freedom slips away. Sometimes I find it hard to carry the burden of my responsibility without the help of my father who I loved so much. Now I am married, I feel that is what is expected of me - to sire children. I discussed it with my father-in-law the night before...

All this talk of children. What does it take to be a successful father?

Marriage is serious business. It is a pact I must cherish and respect. I will swear before God and the family, friends, and woman I love that I will cherish the institution of matrimony. Agatha will be my lifelong partner.

We have a good relationship. Why do I feel so nervous? There is, after all, no more important day until our children are born.

I feel like I am coming down with a migraine. I should rest a while.

I do feel rather peculiar. Oh, and cold - so very cold. It has never been this bad.

I do wish people wouldn't pick flowers from the arboretum.

We're going to have to cultivate more roses. Whoever stipped the daffodils bare caused a great deal of damage. They know nothing of the beauty they've destroyed, and have robbed people of the splendour of roses in bloom.

How inconsiderate.

Each happy hour I spend with Agatha reminds me she's not a normal human being. I love her a lot.

To be married this spring... I await the day eagerly.

I travelled before learning the language of my country. Amongst savages I felt like a child - so helpless and so ridiculous. The fanatics founded our nation by murdering hundreds of thousands of people to build their towns. The Victorian Company makes progress by absorbing every business from national to corner, even my own. They expand to absorb revenue and then some.

Fearfully, I understand how Iscariot works. We need real nationwide terror to reinvigorate this country and to achieve great revolution.

Yet I live a good life. Confusion will rot my mind.

I wanted to find the right person. She is the right person, and not an ordinary human being. I will never treat her as such. How could she be happy were I to do so? I am marrying the one I love. Our relationship grows, and once we have made our vows it will blossom, but marriage is a lifelong commitment.

Is it right I'm feeling a little dizzy?

Our excuses to wage war always change; we fought traitors to the crown, and now heathens in the name of religion. Those who deny violence has solved more problems in our history have no clue pertaining to the nature of humanity.

Even a man like myself... afraid for his light.

Perhaps I worry too much.

The ghost of terror...

Let's just try to stay calm. They demand the impossible, and demand it with violence. I'm not comfortable with living here now. Forgive me, Agatha, but I am afraid. I suppose there is always a time to come together.

I must be strong.

We can make this year's Christmas a party, rather than a memory. The days come and go like inward and outbound tides, and if we do not use the gifts they bring, they carry them as silently away.

On the night of Sunday December 8th, we shall forget life is not always the party we hoped for.

( To my dearest. )